32 weeks with #3

The weeks are passing quickly now. I’m growing more and more tired with each passing day. My days of energy I fear have left me. I am hoping that I can get a few days of it back so I can finish my before baby to do list.

With the kids now in daycare two days a week I am finally getting some rest. I’m amazed at how relaxed my body feels on those days and how easy it is for me to give in to sleep. It’s great but I would very much like to use at least one day a week to do things around the house to prepare for Lyric’s arrival. However, I totally get this kind of rest so I’m soaking it in.

I had a midwife appointment last week and also my second prenatal chiropractic appointment. I had a prenatal massage as well and a Mayan abdominal massage for some pain I’ve been having. I think it was too much body work though along with the yoga I’ve been doing cause I felt sick and overtired all weekend.

The third trimester anxiety has got me full on. I can’t keep my mind of labor starting and how it’s all going to go. I have expectations this time around I didn’t have with the twins. Having a Home birth makes it feel so much more exciting.

I feel he will be here by week 38, however lately I’ve been wondering if I’ll go full term. Of course we jut won’t know until we know! 38 weeks sounds great to me on many levels though. Pregnancy is for the birds! I’m happy this is my last pregnancy and will gladly pass that baton to Kate after this.

I have much more to say but it’s unrelated to pregnancy so I’ll save it for another post.


Nap time and Bedtime

We are struggling with naps and bedtime. Mainly with Emerie. Nap time still consists of me rocking both of them at the same time to sleep. Daiton falls asleep and I get him on the chair by himself and then transfer Emerie to my bed and go back to put Daiton in his crib.

Sounds seem less right? NO! Lately Emerie won’t let me put her in her crib OUT OF NOWHERE! So hence getting her to sleep in my bed, where before I was putting her in her crib and Daiton in my bed just cause they sleep on a barge an hour more or less than the other, no one knows who will wake first each day so having them separated helps ease wake up craziness.

Well a lot of the time Emerie won’t even let me transfer her into my bed either and I spend an hour trying to get her to sleep. Or she reawakens Daiton or visa versa and I spend and hour getting both or at least one back to sleep. Then if I’m lucky I eat some lunch or take a brief “snooze” myself.

Then Emerie us is ally wakes up unbelievably cranky and throwing a screaming fit for an hour or more with no rhyme or reason and no means of telling me what I can do. Sometimes this wears on me so much that I lose it and end up screaming as well only to immediately feel terrible for it. That actually happens on other occasions as well and I hate myself for it!

Back to naps. With 13 weeks or less to go before our #3 Lyric gets here I’m frantically searching for a new alternative to our nap time routine that will work better. I’m open to logical advice especially from other moms of twins or two year olds who have dealt with similar problems.

So, bedtime. We went through a really rough almost two months of very early waking (3/4am) and subsequently early naps. Now that we have moved again and are settled things have evened out and the kids are sleeping in until 6:15-6:30, also due to our OK TO WAKE clock! Something finally worked for us. We also reestablished Cry It Out in the middle of the night and don’t get them anymore.

As for the going to bed part that’s been hard with Emerie. Usually she would cry for 2.5 seconds and lay down and be out. Daiton was our hardball with Cry It Out always. Now I jut tell Daiton that once he is done with his bottle we will stop rocking and I will lay him down and put his blankets one and he will go to sleep like a big boy. Well, he does just that with no peep at all. Crazy and amazing!

Emerie now fight sleep hard and has to be out cold to be put in her crib or she cried hysterically for a long time. It’s hard to have one like that in the same room with another sleeping soundly cause it can lead to both screaming. So what do we do? How can we get her back to going to sleep easily before we have another here too?

We were thinking of transitioning them into toddler beds in hopes we could get them excited to get in their bed themselves and lay down and read a story and then go to bed. Also because they can get INTO their cribs now and Daiton is quickly turning the tables and trying to get out. He’s a bit scared of falling so he hasn’t fully tried yet but I know it’s coming. Again, another thing to worry about happening right as Lyric gets here. So, should we bite the bullet and transition them now to have time to settle into that new routine before he gets here?

When did you transfer yours into toddler beds? Why did you transfer? What obstacles did you face by doing so? How long did it take for them and you to get comfortable with the new routine? How did it change their sleep habits?

Stay at home mom troubles

Stay at home moms:

Is it just me or do your kids never let you take care of household work, run errands or eat? Let alone be happy half the day!

I’m so fucking exhausted and ready to check myself into a silent retreat for a few weeks. No one around me seems to understand my struggles or even care. I have Littleton help during the week and when I do get help it never seems very helpful.

We are trying to find a daycare or preschool for our twins a few days a week to relive me but they are so expensive it makes it seem worthless. I love my kids but I resent being a stay at home mom. It not even close to “easy” like people think. It’s beyond demanding, at least for me.

Adding this third one to my very stressed out life is really freaking me out. I have no idea how I’m going to juggle naps, eating, diapers, potty training, playtime and then household chores, errands and any time for myself. My wife gets the luxury of having a great job and leaving the house 5 days week and having minimal to do when she is home.

Not me! I’m here 24/7, on a schedule cause there’s no way around it when your feeding and caring for twin toddlers. After she gets home I still have dinner, baths and bedtime, along with cleaning up the toys and then hopefully going to sleep. Waking up with both kids and watching her leave the house 30min later just to start all over again.

It’s never ending. I resent not having a career before these kids came along. I want them in childcare at least part time. Anytime I talk to other stay at home moms they never seem to understand. I’ve stopped venting cause I feel like a complainer, the outcast mom who no one understands. They all have kids who sleep and eat well, behave themselves most of the time (or so it seems) or just have it all figured out better than me.

Is it have I have twins? Or is it that I’m

Not meant to do this? Either way I’m stuck and it’s getting lonelier and harder to manage. I thought it was supposed to get easier?

instagram account issues

For some reason my Instagram account was deleted and i cannot get it back. therefore i made a new one under the name ladyloveandbabydust3 since I guess the 3rd times a charm…why it this so difficult?

there will only be todays post on there cause i don’t have it in me to repost everything. Sorry to anyone this threw off today.


I’ve decided to start “blogging” on Instagram for a while to keep the private posts more accessible to those who I’ve decided I’m ok letting follow along in our more private matters. 

It’s under the same name as the blog. ladyloveandbabydust

Private message me on there if I don’t accept you cause I may not know who you are in IG