How far along: 34 weeks. 3 weeks or less to go! (Countdown to 37 weeks)
Total weight gain so far: 42lbs to date.
How big are babies: Between 5-6lbs and 17in approximately.
Boobies: 34DD up from a 32D prepregnancy. They are very sore, but no real leaking yet.
Maternity wear: Yes. If it’s not maternity it’s Kate’s boy clothes to lounge around the house in. I have next to nothing that fits to go out of the house in, even panties are too small.
Stretch marks: A few around my old belly button piercing. I’m sure more are on the way with how big I’m getting.
Belly button In/Out: Out and flattening again.
Wedding ring Off/On: Off 😔
Most current symptoms:
- Pelvic pain
- Carpal tunnel
- Abdominal pain
- Chest pain/rib pain
- Severe swelling in my legs and feet
- Loose bowls
- Peeing more frequently
- Congestion/boody nose
- Bloody gums/sensitive gums and teeth
- Sore vulva
- “Sparkles” in vision /blurry vision
- Anxiety with BH contractions
Sleep: I am now in pain while laying down on either side and a million pillows don’t help much. When I wake up to go pee, getting up and out of bed is a serious challenge both physically and mentally, it’s exhausting and sometimes down right painful. Waking up in the morning is the WORST because I’m still dead tired no matter how much sleep I got and my belly is usually rock solid and hurts to the point of crying.
- Peeing and popping like normal
- Bending over!!
- Not being swollen
- Comfortable sleep
- Being able to accomplish a task without help
Movement: Slowing down a lot now. Their movements are slow so I can tell they are squished. No matter what they do their movements hurt me. I can’t do kick counts ’cause I don’t know who it who.
Food cravings: This changes a lot. My cravings have been more definite the third trimester but they don’t last long.
Here is what I’ve been wanting lately:
- Fruit all the time
- Almond Milk
- Kind bars/ausie bites
- Anything sparkling/carbonated
- Bread items
Babies Sexes: Boy and Girl. 💙💗👫 So excited and happy. Names: Daiton Paul Joseph and Emerie Anne Renee!
Labor signs: Braxton Hicks which are just practice contractions for real labor. The BH are now very random and happen more regularly at night and while sitting in the car. The tightness is now spreading over my belly and less just on one side. They last 1-2 minutes and cause my anxiety to go crazy.
Loose stools, pelvic pressure and pain, nesting intensity, emotional changes(PMS-like) and a general sense of “doom” aka labor stating soon lol. Imreally hoping they are here between now and 36 weeks.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Moody 😄😁😕😢😴 peoples nonsense and ill timed comments are really getting to me. When Kate doesn’t properly express herself or gets short with me I feel like I’ll either cry or get angry. I’m putting on a smile as best I can but I don’t want to.
Best moment this week: Didnt have one.
Worst moment this week: An emotionally taxing day where I couldn’t possibly have felt worse emotionally and physically.
Looking forward to: Holding these babies sooner than later! Please god sooner.👶🏽👶🏽
Purchases for the babies: Kates work thew her a baby shower and the gifts/gift cards and gifts/gift cards from you sweet people purchased the last of our must haves. Just a stroller now needed.
Things people say:
“Good luck” (sarcastic tone)!”I have two close in age and I thank god everyday I don’t have twins”, “I’m excited for you but I pity you” said by my dentist after finding out I’m having twins.
“I wish I had a wife” when referring to both of us breastfeeding. This is not an OK comment, it sounds sexist and silly.
Looking their ultrasound pictures, “they look like little black babies”, “You better hope their not too dark” (this was not said in a racist manner). Lucky for me this came from a family member so I was able to tell him not to say things like that to me.
After telling someone we struggled to get pregnant “Oh we are going to get pregnant in October, I can plan it like that cause it happens so easy for us” I wanted to tell her to go fuck herself and have some compassion.
“No offense but your HUGE!” Offense taken.
“Hey fatty fatty” This is never appropriate to say to anyone ever, especially when pregnant.
“So a boy and a girl… how cool, are they identical?” This one blows my mind.
“So you guys want four kids?” Assuming Kate will have twins too, very popular statement.
“Are they both from the same dad/donor?” Huh? Seriously!
“When is your baby due?” “My babies are due in August”……..blank stare for a few minutes….
“Is your wife happy your having twins?”…..no she’s actually divorcing me.
“So will your wife have twins too?” If it’s in the cards, but why is this an assumption?
“Did you put two babies in there on purpose?” We didn’t put anything in there and twins are not plannable. This is where people assume you have to have IVF if your a lesbo, no in between in their minds I guess.
Today’s OB appointment
As per the usual, it went well, and I should be happy about it but I’m feeling deflated. For the last few days I’ve been having mild cramping in my low abdomen and low back along with stronger Braxton Hicks when they come on. My moodiness is escalating with my patience level as well. Because of these things I felt that labor was on its way.
I had her check my cervix and I’m closed shut,mini dials tin and no effacement. I know that at this point both those things mean little to nothing but I would have liked to know something…anything was happening in there.
Emerie is transverse with her head on my left again and Daiton is still head down. After discussing my birth options today with my OB I came to realize that having him head down means nothing if she isn’t too. If at 36 weeks she is not head down we will be planning on a Csection. Kate, myself and my doctor do not feel it will be in my best interest, or the babies, to try a vaginal birth with Emerie not head down because I’ll likely need a Csection after he is out anyway and it could become an emergency Csection which no one wants.
I should mention my OB is not a Csection pusher or an alarmist AT ALL. She is actually quite calm and extremely down to earth. Her opinions I take seriously and she is always up to discuss they “why’s” and “how’s” with me. She herself has had twins and today she told me about her labor and delivery.
So basically if I go into labor and find my contractions are regular for one hour I am to go into L&D and check the position on both babies, if she’s still not head down we get scheduled for a Csection, if she is head down I stay until their born. They will only send me home if I am barely dilated at all otherwise I have to labor in the hospital. That part sucks but I’m rolling with the punches.
At home labor prep
I have been having Kate rub my feet nightly with some essential oil blend I made that’s supposed to help you get ready for labor (all the herbs are safe once in the third trimester). I have also been doing a lot of ball bouncing and swaying along with getting on all fours and rocking my hips and doing circles. Every couple days a do mild labor acupressure points too. I’m being proactive in helping my body prepare to go into labor without actually doing full at home induction methods.
Oh, I am now taking Evening Promrose Oil daily and inserting one in my vagina near my cervix nightly to help efface the cervix. EPO is great for effacement but it will not dilate you! Even if it doesn’t do anything EPO is great for many female issues and skin problems so it’s good for me anyway.
How am I?
Truth be told…..I am down right miserable. I cannot sugar coat anything. I know it could be worse and that many of you twin mommies and singleton mommies have had rougher pregnancies than me, but all I know is my own experience and right now it blows.
About a week ago the tides changed big time. Everything on me is in pain or significantly sore. My stomach is so stretched out that it’s tight all the time and feels like the feeling you get the next day after someone punches your arm really hard. Each movement the make makes it worse. Sometimes I beg them to stop it hurts so bad.
My lower back feels like it’s going to break from the pressure and my siatic spasms and gets shooting pains all the time. My hips are widening and I can feel it on the days it’s stretching. Not a fun feeling at all. Yet Daiton is not engaged at all and this blows my mind cause of all the pressure I feel.
It scares me. I’m actually frightened of the pain I’m going to continue to feel get worse over the next few weeks if they don’t come soon. How do our bodies not just max out and boot these little buggers out. Mine are way bigger than most twins born between 36-38 weeks (if their estimates are correct). At this rate I’m going to have two very normal full term babies, probably 7-9lbs each. I’m thankful their healthy but I’m not a big person.
Thanks for listening to my pathetic pregnant rant. I assure you more in the posts to come as my doctors assured me it will only get worse, way way worse. Awesome.