I’ve finally caught up on my blog reading, minus a few, and I’m glad I did cause I had no idea what was going on with all of you. I don’t have the energy to comment each time I read, my apologies, but I am reading now.
Thank you to everyone that talked me down and also talked me up from my ranting post a few days ago. I’ve been much more hormonal lately which when paired with my natural Sagatatrian Fire I’m finding can be brutal. Watch out world!
I have many other posts I’m wanting to write because I’m tired of only doing bumpdates and I’m not really into them to begin with, but I want to have a record for later to look back on. I’d love some ideas of posts you may be interested in having me write, or just a questions and answers type of thing. I’d like to do something different when I do have the energy.
This last week has been a doozy. I feel like the first trimester has started again; exhaustion, restlessness, moodiness, nausea and vomiting, no appetite and not wanting to socialize. I really hope it’s just a quick phase but I’m thinking it’s probably not. I’ve been reading more about twin vs. singleton preganancies and finding that I’m pretty normal when comparing myself to twin pregnancies and not at all with singletons. Go figure that there is a big difference after all.
I’m trying to give myself a break but I just feel so far off from “myself” that its hard. I know it’s affecting every single component in my life and that’s usually when your supposed to make a change. Only with pregnancy…what can you change? I’ve started using essential oils more again and reading more about appropriate uses and talking with my MIL since she is more educated on them than me. I’m hoping they can help relieve some of my ailments even a little.
Our anatomy scan is next Friday the 17th and I’m looking forward to it. We get to see the babies for at least an hour and a half! Also, my mom might come down for it. It’s with a MFM doctor in another city cause my OB thinks someone more experienced with twin pregnancy should do the scan, I just hope he/she is pleasant.
The baby shower is being planned out by my SIL and I’m so thankful. I have no clue how people do it themselves. I wanted to be very involved and now I seriously don’t care. My SIL knows what I like and don’t like, has good taste and I just trust her. So thank you Leah! The very thought of it all stresses me out.
The shower is supposed to be the last weekend in May but now it may need to move up a little bit. We are supposed to move into my MILs June 1st. So I think trying to move and having the baby shower in one weekend is a bit much. Especially cause I can’t do anything. I can help pack but that’s it. We are going to need a lot of help this time. I’m talking all hands on deck. I really hope people are willing to help us do this.
I’m excited to move to save money but nervous about all that it might bring up. My MIL and I love each other but we don’t see eye to eye on many things. Our living habits are very different and her husband and sons living habits even more so. We will only be sharing a bathroom and kitchen with them, but even that is going to be a challenge.
I want to talk about how we will share the bathroom and kitchen appropriately beforehand, but my wife thinks it will cause too much undue stress for her mom. I’m all for not stressing her out but I also want to know that we are all on the same page. Sharing a very tiny bathroom with three grown women and a teenage boy is not a pleasant idea to me. There are two other bathrooms in the house upstairs that the boys could use and just leave the bottom bathroom for us girls. Makes sense right? Apparently only I think so at this time,maybe once we talk about it with her she will agree.
As for the kitchen, let’s just say it’s always a bit of a mess. We are fairly clean people and every time I go to make something in that kitchen I get a bit overwhelmed. Mainly the fridge. How are we going to share a fridge? It’s always packed full of bad produce and out of date leftovers cause they eat out a lot. We will need to talk about space in the fridge for sure cause I need to have my own space. That’s the whole point of us not living inside the house. We need our own space as much as possible to keep the peace while we are there.
Speaking of space. My FIL has a bunch of train stuff in the studio we will be occupying. He’s being really vague about what he wants to do with it all. We have made some suggestions, one of which is paying for a storage unit for him to store the stuff while we are there, and the most we get out of home is “I’ll think about it”. I fully think he anticipates us living in that room with all his stuff. Mind you his stuff takes up nearly the whole room. So that’s a battle that so far no one is winning.
Even though there’s a lot of little stuff in the long run this will be a good decision for us. We will have help nearby with the twins, not have to pay rent and in turn pay off a lot of debt. You rarely get these chances in life and I’m grateful we get to have this option at such a needed time.
If your still reading thank you cause I know sometimes my ranting posts seem very negative. However, that’s how my mind works, I look at all the cons of a situation and then eventually find all the good that outweighs the “bad”. I’m a bit backwards like that. I’m also very blunt and honest, anyone who knows me well knows that I always mean well and have the best intentions. I’m the first to apologize if I feel I’ve wronged someone and also quick to reword something that came off wrong.
Thank god for this blog! Without it I’d be lost. It’s my very personal space I know I can come too when I need to talk about anything and not fear I’ll be misunderstood or hurt anyone’s feelings. It’s my journal or diary if you please. I know I’ll get supportive feedback or at least helpful and supportive debates about topics. It’s for this reason that it’s not anonymous. I want whoever wishes to read this blog to know me this deeply, and even if they are friends or family in non virtual life they are welcome to read knowing this is my personal space and that I’m allowing them to see the very vonurable parts of me by not being anonymous.